Wow, this is a slow process. It's taken me 5 whole months to lose 28 lbs, and I'm only halfway there. Maybe I should just say it differently in my mind, "Yay, I'm halfway there, only 5 more months to go!" Eh, that didn't work. When I want something I want it now, instant gratification, and unfortunately that is certainly not how healthy weight loss goes. I'm now starting to beat myself up over how I let myself get this big, and how could I think this weight was OK between my pregnancies. I now weigh 1 lb lighter than I was when I found out I was pregnant with Ellie. I am proud with how far I've come, but so mad at myself for letting it get this out of hand, I'm frustrated and motivated. But why can't I lose it faster, I just want to be at goal TODAY.
I often tell people that this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, it takes will power and obedience, which I really have neither. I have no one yelling at me if I gain, or slapping a candy bar out of my hand, I am the complete owner of this "project" and the only one responsible for getting the "project" completed. It is so tempting to just give up, or tell myself I'm comfortable and happy, and that there's no need to continue.
On the flipside, this is the easiest thing I've ever had to do. Maybe I should clarify, it was the easiest decision I've ever had to make. The kids and my husband are my driving forces, I want to be healthy and active with them and for them.
We were in Myrtle Beach last week, and that was hard, but thank goodness we ate mostly seafood which is actually pretty WW friendly. I ate enough crab legs to last me 2 years, yum! Soooo good. And fortunately I only gained .5 lbs! YAY for me. And then lost 1.5 lbs this week, which was awesome, so essentially down a pound from 2 weeks ago.
On a side now, a really fun update: I got a new full-time job!!!!!! I start in 2 weeks! This is my first full-time job in over 3 years, and I am so so so excited! But as starting any new venture, I'm so nervous too, like the first day of school. If anyone wants filled in, don't hesitate to message me through FB. :)
Goodbye 190's, I will NOT miss you!
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What is the hurry to get to goal? This is IT girlie. The process...the good choices...the constant consciousness about what goes in your mouth and what doesn't...the process doesn't end because you 'hit goal'.
ReplyDeleteThe high point is that once you hit goal, you look great and feel great while you are being mindful of eating healthy and getting off your behind.
Is it going to take a long time? Yes. Most likely for the rest of your life if your plan is to -stay- at a comfortable, healthy weight.
You are doing great. Don't beat yourself up. In the long run, that magic number you are aiming for doesn't mean nearly as much as the long process of getting to it and staying at it means.
Just keep keeping on.
You have always been beautiful. Working on being healthy and active can only make it better.